I have now sunk back into my normal lack of motivation mode. During the holidays I have done uni work on 3 or 4 occasions. I am majorloy behind where I would like to be and just can't find the motivation to work. I am hoping once i get back to uni, to lectures I will find this and actually get on with work.
Yesterday I stayed at Wheatly till 7pm. From the 2 and half hours I possibly spent 90 mins not doing anything. I did go over the fundamentals of engines but paniced at the tutorials. Where do I start with the solution? lol
I have cwk due next Monday so I can see a busy weekend getting that finished. I have the basics done but no where near finishing.
I just feel everyone elses problems has cause a mjor downward spiral for me, hence the lack of motivation.
Tuesday, 24 January 2012
Sunday, 22 January 2012
Issues and people
I'm not sure what is going on right now. The majority of my friends have major issues. Which is fine, nothing wrong with having them but I just feel I am going round endless circles of trying to help people and that is draining to point of depression.
Some issues feel like a broken record, some you try and help them but they won't let you help them and some just won't listen to your advice and fall down the same trap they keep setting themselves up for. I will always be there for my friends but there is only so much you can do if they are not willing to listen.
I had a fantastic chat with a close friend last night where we both opened up about some quite major things that have happened in our lives. It's made me realised how far I have come. I have been on/off depressed for over half my life. However I have fought through them and become the person I am today, and even though I am feeling low right now I rarely make it shown to public eye. I would like to think that I am a very postive guy and I rarely make my negative feelings shown to Joe Bloggs only to my close friends if I feel like talking.
There is no point wasting time in this life. Life is too short, it could quite easily be over tomorrow. Just think of all the near missed you have when in a car or walking across the road! You might feel like shit but your friends are around you to support you and make you enjoy yourself even if it only feels like 5 minutes.
Fighting depression is never easy, but a being able to discuss or talk about your thoughts is one of the best tools you have. Even if it is writing a blog to get your thoughts onto paper. There are many other ways to help tackle them, give them time and your own effort. Don't give up on them cause they are just tools to free your mind.
Some issues feel like a broken record, some you try and help them but they won't let you help them and some just won't listen to your advice and fall down the same trap they keep setting themselves up for. I will always be there for my friends but there is only so much you can do if they are not willing to listen.
I had a fantastic chat with a close friend last night where we both opened up about some quite major things that have happened in our lives. It's made me realised how far I have come. I have been on/off depressed for over half my life. However I have fought through them and become the person I am today, and even though I am feeling low right now I rarely make it shown to public eye. I would like to think that I am a very postive guy and I rarely make my negative feelings shown to Joe Bloggs only to my close friends if I feel like talking.
There is no point wasting time in this life. Life is too short, it could quite easily be over tomorrow. Just think of all the near missed you have when in a car or walking across the road! You might feel like shit but your friends are around you to support you and make you enjoy yourself even if it only feels like 5 minutes.
Fighting depression is never easy, but a being able to discuss or talk about your thoughts is one of the best tools you have. Even if it is writing a blog to get your thoughts onto paper. There are many other ways to help tackle them, give them time and your own effort. Don't give up on them cause they are just tools to free your mind.
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